Warning: Serious and Personal
November 30, 2006 4:09 pmYeah, I know. I’m actually gonna talk about myself, about some serious crap going on. While about 99.9% percent of you don’t know me personally, you do read about how much I like to drink. What you may not realize, is that nothing has been exagerated. I seriously drink that much. A few weeks ago I started thinking about that, just exactly how much alcohol I drank in a week. Plus, I found this site that gave me an estimate on how much I spend on alcohol per year. I spend A LOT! So lately, I’ve been cutting back. I didn’t even feel like drinking much at the hockey game (though part of it was the horrible seasonal microbrew I had before the game). While I do realize the amount I drink has become a problem, I’m not gonna go to AA and start talking about it. Why? Becouse for one, I refuse to go somewhere and talk about myself (I’m quite happy doing it online), and two, AA is for quitters. I ain’t quitting. I’m just slowing down. Besides, holidays almost require alcohol for me (see Thanksgiving). And bars? I mean come on, how can I go to a bar (or play pool) without beer? Please.
Another change, while less exciting, is already having a totally dramatic improvement. I made the switch from regular to Decaf coffee. But only at home. Everywhere else I’m all about the caffine. Why did I make this switch? Well, hard to say really. I guess the fact that I drink so much of it, I got tired of my hands shaking after half a pot. Plus I haven’t seen much of a difference in the wake up juice.
There are some other things I’ve either cut back on or quit, but I’m not gonna talk about ‘em, just becouse. Later
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10 Responses to “Warning: Serious and Personal”
OMG. You are the bravest guy (online, today) that I know.
Seriously, it is sooooooooo hard to admit you have a problem and I am proud of you for doing that. And trusting us with a really personal aspect of your life.
Hugs
I want to know what else you’ve cut back on that you aren’t telling us.
Masturbating? Nahhhh. If you’re not blind by now, then you’re probably pretty safe … I mean, as long as you wear gloves.
I wasn’t able to figure out for myself that my alcohol consumption had reached danger levels, but had good friends who were kind enough to point it out to me. After that, I cut way back, and mostly save up my drinking for parties and special occasions.
You should do the same, so you can get wasted with us at TequilaCon PACNW!! Portland, Oregon… March 10th, 2007!!
Good on you for changing yourself for you.
I don’t think I could function on DeCaf…
Two things:
You’re still young. Make the effort now. /mommyness.
There’s a new study I’m doing that’s going to prove that over consumption of alcohol is more healthy than over consumption of McDonalds and that’ll blow the lid off of alcoholism’s bad reputation for killing Daddy’s and leaving scars on strippers…hell, I might even turn the culture in to the most popular reality series on television. I don’t know where this is going…I’m done now.
I realize you probably aren’t as extreme as the example I’m about to site… but drinking excessively can still be a problem no matter what. I’m just giving you my take…. ok?
My ex-hubby loved to drink. He was always drunk (except at work) and loved drinking at home more than anything. He could and would polish off an 18pack by himself in about 3-4 hours easily. He did that often. If we fought he would pass out cold and leave me with no resolution. He got drunk at all my family’s functions so I would have to bring him home and pour his drunk ass into bed. He would embarrass me in public when he was drunk. I mean completely embarrass me. He would try to quit but a week later he was drunk as hell again. I hated coming home to him because he would be drunk and I would be mad and we would fight. It’s just no fun when one person is always trashed. What’s the other sober person supposed to do? Not to mention that he would get so trashed that he would get up to pee in the middle of the night and get trapped in the bathroom cuz he couldn’t find his way out. Sometimes he just ended up naked and asleep in the bathtub. I was 118 pounds, he was 6ft and 220… I left him in the tub many times.
Anyway, I’m sure that is not even close to you and your situation but I would hate to see relationships ruined in the future because you drink too much. My ex ultimately chose beer over me… if he hadn’t then maybe he would have tried harder to hold onto me.
It can be done without AA, one of my former neighbor’s totally quit because he was a mean drunk and couldn’t stop at one. But he never went to an AA meeting in his life. He just came to a point in his life where he realized what was going on and he made a choice.
I sincerely wish you good luck in making this change.
And I applaud the fact that you put this out there for all to see.
Tracy - Thanks for the support. It’s a work in progress.
Cap - hehe, I’m not telling
Dave2 - I’m totally there!
KG - Thanks!
DB - I didn’t think I could either, but its working. Plus, I still have caffine everywhere else.
Miss Ann - I’m actually doing just fine choosing not to drink. Plus, lately I just havent felt like it.
Hamburger - I’m all for that study!
Angel - yeah, never gone that far. I average about a beer an hour, if that. Plus, it doesn’t mean that much to me if I had to choose something over it. Alcohol would probably be the first thing I dropped, if I ever had to make that type of choice.
Sue - Thanks. Like I said though, I aint quitting, just cutting back.
I think the main reason I spend so much, not just becouse I drank so much, is becouse I love a particular micro-brew, which is about $14 a 12-pack. And its nearly all I drink.
Care to comment?